My Fat Journey 1.1

...current weight, 85kg

     Hey, waddya know? Two & half months went pass by and now I have managed to lose 13kg which makes my current weight 85kg. I am happy because I am now receiving good remarks from people telling me I looked smaller than my previous self. Not to mention that my complexion too now enjoys the benefit of less oil consumption and thus produce an almost grease-less face. 

    The weekends were hectic, I went to KL to see friends that I haven't seen in a long time and also for some minor shopping since Jusco is on sale. I was also looking for a gift for my principal who's got a transfer and job promotion as well. I like his leadership. The best boss so far for me since I don't have a good track record with the previous principals. I also bought 2 t-shirts since my previous ones are so ill-fitting now. Next purchase was a chappati maker for my dad, a grill pan for myself, a Cornell blender that is handy enough for me to carry so that I can mix my CD drinks & soups, an Alain Delon shoes that was on a 50% discount (yeeeha!) ; a big tote bag which was originally intended for a weekend shopping bag but since I like it so much perhaps I will now use it on daily basis. Hey, it was 70% discounted! And exactly the one that I'm looking for!

      Dinner was thosai with dhal over at Mahbob's in Bangsar long after the shopping mall was closed. Got hungry since I was walking in the mall from 6pm-10.30 pm carrying all the heavy loads... Saturday was a late one for me since I slept quite late the nite before by having chat with Tini. I was telling her what happened to me the past months we didn't see each other. A quick hot shower and then zzzzz....When I got up it was 9.30 I think. Oh well, the head was pounding too. Must be the lack of sleep or perhaps BP attack. Well, gotta take those meds but not before a nice late breakfast with a CD Chocolate Mint. And drink lots and lots of water.

       Yate came a bit later in the afternoon since we all promised to meet up at Amcorp Mall around 5 with Fairuz too. Tini came back from work and then we head to Amcorp in Yate's car. We head straight to Book Excess and i got myself A Bobby Brown Make-Up Manual for only RM34.90 from an original price of RM120!! Another well deserved purchase. I also went to my fave section which is the backdated magazines section and bought around 7 or 8 health magz for not more than RM50. Another sensible purchase! A great way to spend the time while waiting for that Korean restaurant to open for dinner.
      6 pm and we head straight to the Korean restaurant. Missed the food but hey, eat with caution please since I'm still on a low-calorie diet. While all my friends choose BBQ Chicken+Rice, Beef Bulgogi, Fish Teriyaki....I chose a Kim Chi Soup. There, it should be a good alternative since it has no noodle & rice. Just veggies, beancurd, chicken chunks...and boy that was one spicy soup!
Food was great, but the company even greater.
      After dinner, we head to Starbucks since I already made a promise to L & H that I'm going to buy them Venti from that place. And more conversation with Fairuz as the centre of everything. That girl really has a lot of stories to tell. Quite interesting ones and some Arabic lesson as well incorporated.
     All in all, it was a great meeting them. Oh, no coffee for me just plain water. Being a good girl. 

My Fat Journey 1

Ugly and overweight. 

Adios. Long silence again. Huh. Too busy peeps. Sorry. Anyway, as the title says, I am going through a journey. My fat journey to be exact. I am FAT. No matter what close friends say, I have to accept the fact that I am fat. I don't look good in pictures. I feel tired and sleepy most of the times. And the worst thing that happened - my BP reached 200! Others would have died even at 130, a friend says who lost her husband to HBP. Or go into a coma. Here I was, walking, driving & teaching. I felt that there was something wrong with me when I woke up from sleeping. My head feel light and I feel as though I'm walking on air. It was that high blood pressure. What a wake up call.
No more do I want to be in this situation any longer. No more. I had wasted many years and not keeping myself in shape. My bad. My fault. My fat journey. Now it's time to make a change. 
I went to see a private doctor because I hope that he would recommend me something that will help me lose my excess load.
He told me to try Cambridge Diet. And so I did. I met the counselor in charge and I did everything. At my heaviest two months ago, I was 98 kg. 98kg, two more to reach 100. Never did I realize that I would end up as overweight as this. What did I do? I thought I was eating right. Obviously I was wrong. So I made up my mind. I will go through this journey with Cambridge Diet all the way til I get my ideal weight.
I really don't want to be that fat woman where even climbing a flight of stairs made me out of breath.
I need to change and I choose Cambridge Diet. It doesn't taste as good as food of course. But it helps me to shed from 98 to 85kg so far. So yeah. I'm happy. I spent a lot of cash for this. And I intend to start anew even after this. 
The painful knee is gone. I like it. And I will continue this journey to good health and better weight management. 

10 Jenis Cikgu Yang Korang Sure Terjumpa Time Kursus/Meeting/Seminar & Sebagainya

...dah lama wa tak ngomel hah sekarang rasa nak ngomel la pulak, kebetulan ahli panel wa ada balik dari kursus jadi ada la bermacam2 berita & cerita yg nak dikongsi..

…esp pada kaum cecikgu la (sbb tak sure profession lain mcm mana ceritanya), sure korang pernah pi kursus, seminar , mesyuarat atau bengkel kan? Pernah tak korang rasa yg korang mcm ALIEN kat situ? Completely being ignored, when nobody speaks to you or even smile at you to make you feel at ease. Tu baru fasa pertama, belum lagi masuk bab2 kerjasama dan lain2…

Wa serius perasan memang terdapat beberapa golongan orang setiap kali ada mesyuarat, kursus, seminar atau mesyuarat nie…secara ringkasnya biarlah wa kategorikan kepada jenis2 species kat bawah nie:-

1.            Kelab ‘DIORANG-DIORANG JE’ – semua kat situ semua geng2 & kroni dia. Dari penyelaras, facilitator, pemilihan peserta, pemberi ceramah, etc…semua geng dia. Yg paling best tu bila masuk2 jer semua peluk cium tanya kabar pas tu kiter yg alien nation ni tercangak2 sorang2 sbb tak kenal sesapa pun. Tengok kiri kanan semua geng2 makcik2 giler kuasa….hadui…macam mana la English education kat Perak ni nak maju? Dah hidup berkroni & berpuak2…asyik2 geng diorang jer. Bagi la chance kat orang lain, banyak lagi guru2 muda berbakat  tapi tak pernah diberi peluang & ruang. Sian bila tengok cikgu2 yg mungkin terpilih hadir semata2 untuk mengisi ruang kosong (kuota)…macam kangkung tersepit kat celah2 gigi…

 2.            Kelab ‘PERASAN BAGUS’ – jenis yg kat atas jugak ler….ceh ceh…semua pun mesti ikut idea dia. Dari isi ceramah, cadangan semua…padahal kadang2 tak masuk akal dan tak best pun idea diorang tu tapi ada la pulak back-up dari kroni2 yg menyokong & memuji mcm nak rak. Kembang la hidung makcik2 tu. Kalau ada yg berani bersuara siapla satu bala tentera datang menyerang bertubi2 tapi kalau dah memang idea cam longkang keje setakat nak nama takkan menang punya…last2 gua serang balik 3 kali ganda..apasal tak leh jawab? Tadi banyak sangat cakap? Mana kelab penyokong tu? Apasal diam??? Pas tu sure molot moncong cam sudu yg org gantung kat dinding tu...sambil ngutuk2 la kan? sudah2 la tu kak wey, jgn over sangat!

3.            Kelab ‘TENUNG-TENUNG’ – ni satu hal lagi. Tak buat kacau. Bising pun tidak tapi Ya Allah merenung kalah perogol bersiri. Ntah apa yg direnung pun tak taw kadang2 sampai gua cium ketiak sendiri sebab risau ada bau2 pengit hangit ker, ataupun ada koyak rentas baju wa kat mana2, almaklumlah wa sedar badan wa yg berisi lemak kental itew….ker tenung taik lalat wa yg banyak nie?…he he senang jer nak atasi wa jawab jer “tak payah kira sbb hari2 tumbuh baru” terus tunduk2 tak angkat muka lagi..tu la sapa suruh tengok2? Tak taw ker tengok2 tu boley kena saman kat England? Eh lupa gua. Wa kat area Batang Padang bukan England….sapa nak saman?

4.            Kelab ‘ADA AKU KESAH?’ – ni dah sah2 anggotanya cecikgu lelaki…..sian. jadi minority la pulak sbb byk cecikgu pompuan gila kuasa tunjuk power jadinya diorang ni meminggirkan diri lagi terpinggir….jenis yg tak menyusahkan orang lain. Kerja senyap dan simple, sesimple yang wujud dalam dunia ini. Mereka2 ini menyokong teguh prinsip ‘ASALKAN SIAP, ASALKAN ADA’….teman berborak yg best sbb time2 ni sama menyampah dgn kelab No. 1 & 2 tu…wa suka diorang ni sbb kelakar giler..terhibur wa….tak rasa mcm ada persaingan ker apa ker…ni la wa tak paham kenapa cikgu pompuan semua tak leh ikut contoh kaum cikgu laki2 nie….dah la sporting, peramah, kaki makan, kaki sembang..semua pakej la ada….

5.            Kelab ‘BERKECUALI’ - Anggota yg paling tak menonjol. Datang, sign attendance, buat apa2 yg patut, participate sikit2 (idea kena tolak terus diam noktah). Makan pas tu balik….esok pun rutin yg sama sampaila habis..(tapi geng ni selalu kuat makan sbb senyappppp ajer tengok2 atas meja makan semua dia kaut - segala lauk, dessert semua penuh meja…..) Selalunya ahli kelab ni baik2 belaka...Low profile la katakan….

6.            Kelab ‘ADA KER TAK ADA?’ – masa sign attendance ada. Pas tu ilang ntah ke mana. Masa nak pi makan tengok dah ada muka dia kat meja..aikkkk? pas tu ilang balik sampai la waktu makan yg seterusnya….hari last baru tunjuk muka tu pun masa upacara penutup ajer….sbb nak sijil.

7.            Kelab ‘CLAIM TERLAMPAU’ – semua benda dia berkira; dari minyak kereta, makan 3 kali sepanjang perjalanan…semua kena claim….mileage claim biar lebih jgn kurang…..makan, makan duit tak berkat tu cikgu….tak pun buat beli barang kemas baru...lantak la lu orang! tapi pas tu jgn bagi ceramah halal haram kat wa pulak sedangkan lu orang pun sama jer? lebih teruk ada la...bukan benda makan jer lu ingat ada halal haram...sendiri mau ingat la kenapa kadang2 anak2 lu orang jadi tak pandai ker, jahat ker (selalu anak2 cikgu lagi jahat dari budak2 lain, apesal ah???)

8.            Kelab ‘SEDUT’ – semua bahan dia nak sedut…berjaga2 here they comes! Dulu thumbdrive gantung kat leher 3 jenis kaler skrg sudah upgrade pada external hard drive plak…seduttttttttttt semua sampai la semput. Selagi ada ruang kat drive tu sedut…..ilmu mesti dicari! Ntah koleksi apa yg cuba dibuat pun tak tau. Nak kata jurulatih utama pun bukan, GC pun bukan…ah nak anugerah cemerlang kot??

9.            Kelab ‘TAW SEMUA’ – wah, semua orang dia kenal….semua sekolah dia taw…dan setiap sekolah tu wajib satu cikgu mesti dia kenal….wah terernya orang nie..mesti cemerlang Geografi kan??? Bukan takat sekolah malahan pasar malam kat area2 tu pun taw…huish…mantap orang nie….samada ejen CIA ataupun dia mmg suka ukur peta2 dlm negeri Perak ni…mungkin jugak pekerja part-time Google Maps & Google Earth….bagus, bagus….!

10.          Kelab ‘SMS SAMBIL BERKURSUS/MESYUARAT/BENGKEL’ dan lain2 – kalau handphone tu tak reti2 la nak letak bawah meja atau dlm beg…Silent Mode tak wujud dlm dictionary hidup diorang nie…time orang ceramah ker, org buat kerja ker dia tetap dgn SMS dier…ni direct selling kot wa rasa. Tak pun sms anak-anak dia; tp musykil la plak wa. Kata anak kecik mcm mana lak nak sms dgn anak umur bwh 5 tahun? Takkan SMS dgn bibik kot? SMS dgn husband?? Amboi romantic nyer….husband takde keje ker??? Agak2 la kak wey, hormat la sikit etika bersidang….awak tu cikgu bukan CEO. CEO pun ada etika masuk meeting….boring tul wa kalu terduduk tepi org nie…ada satu kali tu wa dengar kakak ni sembang baek punya pasal nak borong pinggan mangkuk kat supermarket tepi hotel tu….yang peliknya time makan yg ahli kelab ni reti pulak tak jawab handphone???? Wa pelik….tapi wa malas nak kesah…

 ...jadi tu la 10 kategori yg sempat wa coretkan disini…maybe kwn2 ada pengalaman serupa dgn wa sepanjang 10 tahun lebih wa pi kursus, etc…skrg wa dah jadi KP wa suruh anak2 buah wa pulak pi kursus (jgn giler kuasa nasihat wa pd cikgu2 semua)…wa nak anak2 buah wa dpt pengalaman & tonjolkan diri sepertimana wa mendapat peluang tu dulu. Yg kelakarnya setakat ni anak2 buah wa siap bergaduh dgn satu cikgu English SMKA sbb anak buah wa kena hina dgn minah tu…mentang2 la anak buah wa ni muda lagi tak semestinya dia bodoh walaupun KPLI….yg satu lagi anak buah wa jadik alien tak saper layan sbb dia pendiam…ada satu jer yg boleh get along sbb pandai BODEK Kelab No. 1….takper la wa tak kesah cara apa pun. Lembut atau keras, gaduh atau baik, bodek atau merit yg penting pegi la kursus utk menimba ilmu…wa nak ckp cecikgu kalau x dpt pi boleh request kat KP….kalau KP baik cam wa, wa mmg suka anak2 buah nak pegi kursus ker aper ker….tak rugi pun kita back-up anak buah sendiri…ok, wa chow dulu!!! Semoga terhibur dgn coretan gua yg best nie!!!!

I Dreamed of That Place

I dreamed of that place

Where quiet, gentle breeze passes me by

I dreamed of that place

Where green meadows greeted me wildly

I dreamed of that place

Where I am standing on the cliff looking over the bayou

I dreamed of that place

Where silence and sounds of small birds and animals become melodies

I dreamed of that place

Where water runs freely for you and me

I dreamed of that place

Where I long to be free from the madness of the world

I dreamed of that place

Where time stood still and moments linger by

I dreamed of that place

Where I can breathe deeply

I dreamed of that place

Where none can come knocking by

I dreamed of that place

Where someday I can and will be there

I Will Accept

I will accept

That my body isn’t slim at all

That my complexion isn’t so smooth

That my hair isn’t so lustrous

That my nails aren’t so pretty to look at.

I will accept

That my voice isn’t melodious enough

That my gestures aren’t feminine also

That my eyes are no 20/20 vision

That my nose isn’t small and cute.

I will accept

That my thighs are as big as a young log

That my arms aren’t slender

That my teeth aren’t perfect like pearls

That my skin isn’t as fair

I will accept

Everything that is me;

What makes of me;

What identifies me;

What made me, ME. 

…Halal or haram??? Yg mana halal, yg mana haram?

….that is the question. Sekarang ni dimana2, semua concern dgn lambang or logo halal…housemate aku sampai ubat gigi pun carik yg halal kecuali la jenama ‘C’…(ada tanda halal tapi apesal dia tak percaya ek?)

Semalam kat radio persatuan pengusaha restoren india muslim Malaysia (senang cakap restoren mamak la….) bagi penjelasan utk menjawab persoalan JAKIM yg mendakwa konon nya ada sebahagian restoren mamak ni tak halal….pakai gantung jer ayat2 suci al-quran utk kaburkan mata orang.

So presiden tu pun mempertahankan yg w’pun mungkin ada yg tak letak logo halal tp tak bermaksud penyediaan makanan tak mengikut syariat Islam….ha tu yang nak tulis nie.

Aku pasti & sure 100% yg kiter semua penah makan or beli nasi lemak, goreng pisang, kuih muih dsb di tepi jalan or pasar malam…ADA TANDA HALAL tak???? So that means kalau takde, kiter semua nie dah makan benda HARAM ker???? Sedangkan kita diajar untuk memilih makanan yg diyakini bersih, halal mengikut syariat Islam…so apa masalah sebenarnyer di sini??? Kakak yg jual nasi lemak tu orang Islam, pakai tudung, bekas ustazah….tp nasi lemak yg dia jual takde lambang or logo HALAL lar…adakah aku ni dah makan benda haram??? Isk, isk..JAKIM, JAKIM…nak buat kerja pun biarlah berhemah & bertempat.

Ni contoh kedua, abah aku sendiri…yg buat business roti tradisi dari zaman 60an lagi….beragama Islam of coz…lesen semua ada tp rasanya takde lambang HALAL gak sbb kami percaya semua org tahu yg penyediaan makanan kami tu mengikut Islam, malahan abah aku tu Haji orangnya, takkan tak tahu hukum hakam…business tu bukanlah business besar2…tp pelanggan semua golongan..adakah ini bermaksud apa yg abah aku buat & jual tu haram utk dimakan semata2 kerana tiada logo HALAL???? (aku pun makan sekali!)

Dan contoh ketiga, seorang guru agama perempuan disekolah aku yg sungguh2 berprinsip utk tidak jamah makanan haram….semua haram. KFC haram, beli ikan dari org Cina haram, tapi mengaku bagi anak2 & suami makan roti ‘G’….Cuma roti ‘G’ saja…tu tak haram ker??? Dah sah2 tokeh bukan Muslim, apa dia ingat pekerja2 kilang tu semua Muslim ker???  Dan dah pernah dah pun keluar artikel yg kurang baik pasal jenama nie yg menyebabkan bukan saja org Muslim tak makan, malahan Cina & India yg dtg beli roti kat kedai bapak aku pun cerita benda yg sama…so ni apa plak jadinya??? Jenama roti ‘G’ tu tak haram…tp maybe roti buatan abah aku tu haram???? Haiya….

Dan contoh terakhir, masakan yg mak, nenek or sesapa dlm family kita masak…ada lambang HALAL??? Takde kan? Kiter makan sbb kita tau masakan tu mmg halal…tak payah nak argue or debate pasal nie….sepanjang kiter membesar tu la makanan mak yg kita makan.

…JAKIM….please la buat some guidelines yg lebih jelas tentang halal haram nie….takkan semua haram kan??? Contoh2 pun aku dah bagi tadi….agak2 la. Nak menjalankan perintah Islam by all means silakan tapi jangan la sampai nampak mcm ego tak bertempat yg akhirnya terkena diri sendiri ibarat menepuk air di dulang….terpercik ke muka sendiri…dulu yoga, pas tu mamak, after this apa plak yg haram???

....mari kita tunggu dan lihat yea sapa yg kena......(lepas ni)!!!

..where did i go????

...and so today i hang out with my gals from UM days; talking, eating and gossiping when the topic of blogging came out and i realized that i haven't been updating my blog. so where did i go and what did i do??? 

and here's my possible answer:- 

1. procrastination (i'll blog later....which then amounts to the absent days) 

2. just lazy, pure and simple. 

3. didn't have any thought-provoking issues to write about 

4. had problems with my 'beruk band' connection 

5. workload... 

so those of the above must be the very reason why i was out of radar all these while. but now i'm back and i think i will try to write more this time.